New post time! I know, I know, it happens so infrequently you all thought it would never happen again. I have been busy finishing up my semester, traveling, and having friends visit. I guess things are "calming" down, but really I feel like it is all about to change again. And I am a little sad about it.
Now, to be fair, I usually feel a bit of melancholy in May. I think it is due to end of school, graduations, and moving on. When I worked at USM, the campus always saw a dramatic change in May: it became this quiet peaceful place (where I didn't have to fight for a parking spot). It always took some adjusting to life there without students or faculty around as often. I am currently going through this again, as I live on campus and it is suddenly silent after a semester full of loud parties. Still, I don't think these are the only reasons. I think that this year, it is different. Or maybe not different, just more. I feel the winds of change more than I have in a long time.
I am sure some of it has to do with my becoming a new decade, and all of those old issues that I've already talked and written about, ad nauseam. I also think that I'm moving into a new phase of adulthood. The kind where you have a career, maybe start a family, buy a house, etc. I think as more of my friends do these things, while not necessarily making feel like I need to do it, I am realizing that people my age are old enough to do these things. Like, my peeps, we can be U.S. Senators now. That's a little mind blowing sometimes. Weren't we just in college? Also, am I now too old to say peeps? [Do not answer that question.]
Also, there is the obvious: I am finishing up graduate school, saying good-bye to the new friends I have made, looking for jobs, moving on, etc. So, these play into this feeling as well. Still, I am finding that I am ready to be settled, at least for a little while. Even if I am only in London for a year, I want to find a flat, and just be content for a year. I have felt in flux for so long, sometimes I think since I graduated college, that just being at ease will be nice.
Still, change can be, and has often proven to be, exciting. It is exciting to think of living in London for a year, getting a job in a non-profit, making new friends. So, while there is that same old sadness, there is also that same old feeling of excitement. And anyone who knows me, also knows I am emotional, and sentimental, which is how I feel now. I just can't be any other way.
So, of course, I'll keep you posted. I am also going to institute my picture of the week--I've been to so many interesting places of late that I want to show them off. They can also give me something to write about if nothing is going on. The one in the post is from Jamaica--Hope Gardens to be exact. This is Jamaica's Botanical Gardens located in Kingston, next to the UTech campus. I was excited to get this picture, because I hadn't figured out how to work my close-up feature yet. I still don't always get that feature right, but sometimes I do, and then you get pictures like these.
I'll start in full force on Sunday, and get a new one up each Sunday. Well, I intend to start that on Sunday, and change on Sundays. You know, sometimes the best laid plans...
Stay tuned.
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